Diary??

August 22nd 2010

Dear Diary,
To be frank, I am not a girl who releases stress by writing. So, this paper will be the first and the last thing I've ever written to you. Sorry…But, don’t be sad! I know you are a good listener. There is a lot of stories I wanna share with you. Yeah. Right! My head sick of it.
FYI, now, I’m 18. In year ’10, 8th month, my age is 10+8=18.
Stop intermezzo. Let's focus. Hmm… actually, I don’t know where to start. there's a lot of things and it's complicated. not always in the bad way, but….. Okay. I am going to tell about him. MFR.

The first time I saw him is in Paskibra’s practice, July 2009. Then, I was getting know him better when we were participants in AMBK. AMBK is Paskibra competition which held by 5 SHS students. He and I often (accidentally) spent time together in the same events. We had practiced together and joined the Paskibra competition and PPI selection. Even though,  we didn’t talk much. No conversation (most of the time).

The strange thing was people said that he “like” me. And... that was right. He expressed his feeling to me in the middle of the road when we rode a motorcycle. That was the most shocking moment in my life. (Yeah! Shut up! I could get killed that night.)
The more strange thing was I said "yes" 3 days after (March, 22nd 2009). The only reason why I accepted him is trying something new. I was bored being single. I thought it will be fun if I had someone who takes care of me, makes me as his center of life, and always pay attention to me: calling, texting, and asking “what are you doing, honey?” or “what’s up, fellas?” every night. Hahahaha…..

At the beginning, I got a little bit hard time to adjust to the new status. He took my time and attention indirectly. And it was stressful. In the other side, he was a nice guy. He made my days colorful. I remembered when we had a vacation together to Malino, spent the night with looked at the sky, baked the corn, and played guitar. I’ll never forget it. And day by day we through are full of memories. Especially, when we celebrated our Anniversary on March, 22nd 2010. That was the best moment I ever had with him. We watched suck movie then went around the Makassar city. Haha…. The best thing was I gave him a present. A jacket that I searched all day yesterday.

Yeah, like other love stories, it's not lasting forever. we ended up our relationship on April, 17th 2010.
He did a BIG mistake and disappointed me. But don't worry, we are still a friend.
Even though he made me mad again in the Poseni, but it's okay. The point is he had colored my life with sweet and suck things. Thanks!